This is not where it starts, but where it continues.

*Warning: There’s some cursing. As there will be in this entire blog*

After about a year of owning this website blog domain, I’m finally inspired to write. It’s not been due to a lack of ideas or thoughts to share but because of a voice in my head telling me, “It’s not important.”

It took me a while (longer than that year, because it took 4 years prior to even buy this domain) to realize that the voice in my head is full of crap. It’s just this big ass JanSport backpack of fear, self doubt, anxiety, and emotional detachment that I’ve been carrying around for almost 39 years. No offense to JanSport.

And you know what? My back frickin hurts. I’m tired of carrying that s*** around.

Touché, it took the pandemic for me to finally do something about myself. Well, to my credit, I did finally start to get my butt back in shape the year before the pandemic. But who’s counting? You have to start somewhere, even if it’s actually a collection of multiple starts of multiple things. Like it has been for me: starting to eat healthier, exercise, learn new hobbies, focus on mental health, create memory moments with the family, and appreciate what we’ve got.

Maybe this is a midlife crisis. Or maybe its a midlife reset. Or awakening. Who the heck knows. Like Ruth said in Ozark, “I don’t know s*** about f***.” All I can do is figure out how to live my best life so that my kids aren’t as confused in their midlife as I am.

Don’t be scared. This blog won’t be doom & gloom. If it were, the voice in my head would be right. It’s not important to read about – it’d be bloody depressing. That’s the entire opposite point of this blog. I am focused on reminding myself and others about the importance of living in the moment and not letting life and fears and doubts or anxiety weigh you down.

So, let’s get after it!